This week we have been set a challenge, it’s massive. My old self is resisting this one but it must surely be the way forward, I mean it would not have been suggested if it was not going to have a big payoff.
The challenge is to sit or at least be quiet and with only oneself for a length of time. To get the maximum benefit from this 3 or 4 days have been suggested. Thankfully for us beginners a day would be a good start with a couple of half days to complement it.
I can think of so many reasons why I can’t do this. I have a family, job and a business to consider. How would I manage to be at one with myself for a whole day? My phone would be full of texts, emails and missed calls and I would miss interactions with my fantastic wife and son. It would be a selfish act and require support from those I love.
The payoff would be insight into me and where I am heading, I would be gaining a connection with my spiritual nature and an understanding of whether I need to make adjustments. Apparently once I have truly quietened my mind I will gain so much more than I can comprehend now as I write this.
I know that this level of thinking and understanding is something I desire and I am adapting my DMP in life to reflect that I need the freedom to do this. Not just once either, I know that this can become part of me and reflecting on life both past and present can allow me to live this life fully. I am excited to know that a day will come when I can be with myself for 3 or 4 days and fully experience life as a result. I’m picturing a Hawaiian beach with no interruptions.
As for now, well I need to discuss this with my wife, unless she reads this post before she comes home from work first. I need to accept compromise to begin with and improve in the future. The fact that this is so hard for me to do is the biggest driving force making me want to do this. How can I have designed a life for myself where taking a day out is so hard to do? I am here with all the stuff I have created and after 41 years on this planet I feel trapped by it.
I am blessed with my fantastic family and we have a plan which is coming into fruition in the next couple of years. The plan allows for us to find ourselves and some time freedom. We can see the results lining up but this serves as a reminder that we must be happy today and not sacrifice today with a hope for a better tomorrow. I know I can make this work and enjoy the process too.
What would the person I intend to become do next?